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March 1, 2013

there's an internal rhythm that is extremely hard to assess, understand, be conscious of, or even talk about!!! then how? -through movement,,, only through movement-- which makes things brighter, fuller, and more complex!

Feb 26, 2013

..when the smallest drop of ‘poison’ remains attached to your processes...you feel as if you never changed, as if nothing never changed...as if things remain stagnant in eternal space, motionless, senseless, unresponsive, cold...
but oh, my friends, how untrue that is!!! deep down, my most profound instinct - it tells me how things are always on the move, unrelentlessly charging into new time/space continuum, our experienceS !!! now, what is this constant battle between my profoundest passions? when the sequence of your thought processes,,, or should i say the increasingly manifold state of your passions,,,from their fervent collisions,,, exceeds a million times that of the space/time continuum in speed, 'quality' and complexity...,, YOUR experience of 'things' and the relations between them changes drastically, time consequently 'slows down', puts on a mask and talks to you differently...and with its big eyes staring deep in you...and it is only at the end of the 'talk' that you consequently 'understand',,, or should i say FEEL... differently...
......a certain self-mastery, patience, calmness and abundant energy is required...and a fast metabolism to be ALIVE during these magnificent events... less than this,,, and you fall behind... depressingly trying to catch up---The whole idea is TO LEAD...Thus someone talked to a plant, a color, a sound, a perspective, a dance...and received even more abundance, speed and quality in them... you follow right???--- organizing the chaos,,, by having it dance !!! want to dance with you...always...and give you form!

Feb 17, 2013

Mortal Loucura
hundred of thousands of seconds...how do you cope with the immensity of it all?
throw your body in space!
the white nights are beginning to form, quickly... the dry sounds from the dreamy falls
How do you preserve superficiality with a cool and confident air about it?
hundred of thousands of steps,,, to go where? how do you count the infinite?
throw your body, fly into it, as if the air is your best friend, the cool mountain air!
it is the end of the day, and the shaken, troubled muscles need to rest, throw your body, everywhere, with an openness that only doors preserve in their essence!
throw it into the open air, the cool mountain air, which birds fill their body with!!!
throw your body into madness, the mortal madness, and I’ll catch it before it hits the dark sides of it!
how do you cope with hundreds of thousands of unrealizable screams?
throw your fragile body into space, in the air, toward the darkest corners, thousands of layers deep, into me...

Feb 15, 2013

O superb gliding feet!!
Immensely sensible hands!!
O confident neck!!
Take me to unimaginable heights, where everything is forgotten, looked at perpendicularly!
O perpetual blood, perpetual stomach!
Teach me how to look through and beyond, with piercing eyes!
O gorgeous and courageous sounds!
Make me one with gliding and the mysterious stratospheric air!

Feb 13, 2013

The redness throughout...
Slow flames that enhance...that lift...that transform...
Fugitive mind, dream big for me!
Explosive tenderness, annihilate yourself onto that mysterious ant's belly...
Multitude...red lines going through with easiness, effortlessness...touch me!!!
Smooth currents making way...deep down...carving, opening, building that which will ASK for more!!!
Self producing currents, that take the smell and lift it up in gorgeousness!
Full bodies that enhance!
The total state that gets filled with the right dose, that which cannot be reproduced, only discovered!!!
And you will always look, search, ask, need to reach and maintain that total manifold state, unless you have
the immense power to disintegrate without feeling yourself!!! How can u bear that??? Impossible,
well, of course it's impossible, unless you have the immense power to disintegrate without feeling yourself...!

Feb 12, 2013

An uncontrolled outpouring of waves of feelings, An electrified state, an eruption, a sublime discharge,
I am melting!!!
Recognizing beauty in immensely complex states, those connections, those sublime
connections that enhance everything!!!
I am giving form!!!
An electrified state, an eruption, a sublime discharge!
Closer, closer…closer!

Feb 5, 2013

...understanding as if immensely distanced...hundred thousand mountains away....
...feeling as if I’m part of your fibers, the deepest ones....hundred thousand miles deep in your core...
...experiencing as if in the moment of catching a prey, with all my senses totally excited and in their most perceptive state...hundred thousand oscillations moving my being!
...full force, tender touch, mysterious smile, dizzy eyes, warm [spil], capricious body, inviting skin, smooth feet, charged muscles....hundred thousand electromagnetic screams!!!

Jan 22, 2013

Dec 29, 2012

...the side of me that knows so much is constantly letting the side of me that feels so much to do just that. How is that possible?! Don’t we have knowing precisely to affect our feelings in such a way that the preservation and the continuation of them becomes important? but the most important question does concern not only the preservation of the feelings, the ones that make you YOU, but the quality of them, the intensity of them, the genuineness of them, the power of them...then the question becomes: granted that these two sides aid each other so ‘willingly’, towards a common goal, we can say that whatever our reason tells us we can SEE, and our feelings tell us we can eat with our eyes- or use any kind of metaphor for that reason, it wouldn't change a thing!!! but the problem of finding the common goal still remains--is it a goal that concerns itself with annihilating, abnegating, destroying feelings, or a goal that will take them to different heights and give them another form?...and we remain hidden deep in a cave without too much light to throw on these questions--unless we understand the need to steal the light from the sun dangerously, and make it aid whatever it wants to...but we have to be uncompromisingly open to IT in order not to suffocate from our own webs, the ones created by our reason!!! then is reason playing tricks on us? why is it not letting go..and at the same time letting things happening?..higher, higher,,,towards the SUN...there we give them another form and take them to different, more noble heights!!!

Dec 22, 2012

experiencing through ‘totalitarian’ lenses,,,
forced upon us because of their nature...
we create layers on top of what we ‘think’ is the substance of our experience without realizing it-without
realizing that the totality of whatever we experience is ‘exaggerated’, fabricated, beforehand, in us, by us!!!
So that reality then in the sense of what we perceive as 'outside' us is something that's a bit different from
what we ordinarily take it to be, experience it, create it! This creative and constant embellishing process
makes for the 'substance' of what we experience---and what a delightful transient and ephemeral process that is!!!
And yet we want to be confident to the point of calling our experience labeling, defining, pinning down,
understanding whatever we fully cannot, as an outside phenomenon,,, at least without looking into ourselves!!!
Is it fear? A sense of losing balance, shaking, breaking in pieces because of the lightness of it?
IS lightness heavy on us??? Strength never presupposes the absence of suffering, the absence of obstacles. IT comes and creates itself out of IT, this gorgeous multidimensional and highly complex activity in your body, mind, and in whatever unifying form/event/state they come together magically! But the beings who are strong and complex, and have an unlimited will to power, an unlimited will to create, to feel, to BE, become....those beings will always feel the NEED for...

Dec 3, 2012

Vazhdon...
Dielli flakëronte mes qiejve kaltërosh
Unë e ti i jepnim kuptim tokës blu, si portokalle
Hëna belbëzonte fshehtas kësaj ëndrre!
Atë ditë-natë, rrezesh dhe yjesh,
të parën mbrëmje hëngra pak diell
dhe piva pështymën tënde,
pastaj të nesërmen, vrava vehten, nga mërzia!...
Ishe zhdukur....
(2003)

Dec 2, 2012

What if i tell you that the softer, tender, juicer, aromatic [side of it] is where great things are always forming and always on the verge of explosion?!! glorious sounds! the moment you feel the contraction of it into remote 'coldness'...you understand it is the right moment you start stimulating IT again, relentlessly...until it melts...what a gorgeous smell! that's why birds love exactly that...because what cannot be 'controlled' has to be given flowery experiences--so that the openness becomes the only process that matters--- like the the opening of a deep blue sky...reveal yourself to me...because that is the only thing-the ability to move genuinely and with fullness-that speaks clearly and directly, and dreamily as well...the unification of a dream with it's real possibilities, its realization in actuality! eh my friends!!!

Nov 19, 2012

...here in the mountain tops everything is colder, crisper, more distanced, nobler, more auspicious, stronger, lighter, fuller,,, and yet everything that lives here melts with desire, with a will and a sense of overpowering what is below, what is inferior, what is to be destroyed consequently, transformed, forgotten! We are made of ice- the smallest change in temperature and ‘we’ suffer! A constant need to be ALIVE, that is ‘burning’ as in nuclear fusion,, so that we can produce energy by discharging what we have in large quantities- LOVE, LIGHT, MOVEMENT of a special kind! We are made of flesh,,, cannot but only BE- through feeling our flesh and bones take infinite number of shapes, connected by time- Movement!!! We are made of sound! Movement that highly affects space, the winds, the distant and desert winds, and produces melodies-what essentially remains of walking elephants through centuries- what a magnificent walking! heavy but confident, slow but heart shaking, paced but internally highly rhythmical! We are made of shells! Deep in our core rests the most perspicuous of our processes, and the oldest! That of the accumulation of a certain special kind of power, that of movement! Everything else you might say is, remains, and will remain bullshit in the face of these trillion year long secrets, secret buried deep in the shells’ core. You want to discover them? No, you fucking do not! Because you know you have to become a seahorse in order to begin the journey! We are made of...and I will find you...

Nov 18, 2012

As if a knife sliced through the fibers of my feelings and cut them to death! …slicing through my ‘quasi’ balanced state and shaking to the point of trembling and vibrating hopelessly - I guess from fear of losing...! Don’t do it please- screams one side of me...! WHY don’t you get affected by it- doesn’t it make your eyes tear and heart pound? …Feeling as if there’s millions of extremely agitated ants in my body that eat my organs from inside--- and leave me empty…empty…empty…don't BE an unbearable sound...sustained by 'soft' ugliness!A freezing state--ice in your ears, eyes, mouth...sustained by a peculiar state of losing ! An un-felt morning--blades of steel cutting through your liver...sustained by an unwanted spider's morbidezza! A ball of fire in your throat...impatient toes that dance with death--the bigger pain is always felt in the extremities!...sustained by a mortal circling of innocent and deadly viruses around the neck!...and yet, i am continuously and increasingly HAPPY! A happiness that is born out of suffering! A glorious happiness!

Nov 17, 2012

more...more...SUN

The persistence of the complexity of our being charges forward with the speed of light, with the immense energy of a star...with the amazing uncertainty of the life of a drop of light! ...and when you realize how fast things change and become unbearably beautiful you wish you could have frozen that moment that would have brought you closer to it all...BUT that is why we have Art, Dancing,,,that is why we do not die from forgetting...that is why we have dance --to create and recreate, to give form, re-find, freeze, relive, understand complexity, to bring back, to understand, to revisit, to be able to feel again, to breathe, with an immense joy, that joy which celebrates LIFE in its fullest, while unfolding, even for just a second...
The constant desire to fully LIVE and feel ALIVE by realizing your power, a supreme discharge of energy during that second, must be the only desire that has real value! but how can you celebrate something that you haven’t fully lived? how do you recall something that you have already forgotten? how can you recreate something that never existed? how can you revisit something that was never ‘fully’ visited?
But as with any question there might always be an answer for it-however incomplete, and you are welcome to provide one, but The only thing here is not the need for shallow answers, but just to celebrate questioning, searching for yourself, imagination, feeling your minutes, through questioning of any kind--and oh, be careful for what you wish for,,, getting deeper into knowing yourself might kill you...not advisable for weak people...you have to be strong to cope with complex and manifold realities...can you build strong, tall, and stable structures with tears, tears of joy?? Yes yes, beyond good and evil-thus spoke the coffee bean when it was being assassinated!!! and the grape has its view about it---it physically and emotionally fully accepts the ‘ugliness’ of itself once disconnected from its friends and its root that it gladly and with an artistic eye wants to be sublimated into wine or moonshine--the deep need NOT for survival BUT for regaining power and energy and of course consequently getting another chance to discharge it...survival is merely a consequence!!! Strong people are not strong for their ability to survive, that is mere stupidity realized after their death,,,, strong people are strong for 'knowing' what to do once they survive each second, knowing in a very peculiar sense, a feeling you might call it, a certain peculiar but most perspicuous feeling-a feeling that wants to implement itself, engrave itself forcefully if you will in what we call existence, a feeling about the need for the increase of their ‘energy’, or their will to power in Nietzsche’s own words!
Mere surviving is for weak people--mere coping is for exhausted spirits, mere waiting to see who you are and become is for sedentary beings...No time to indulge in decadence, decomposition, stagnation, a will to perishing, nothingness...
Sublimation is the key word yes!!! Sublimation to avoid falling into a viscous and weak circle!! But sublimation into what? For what? To then do what with it? The second you achieve that, don't you already have the need to recharge, discharge, engrave yourself into 'things' and spirits, and if so don't you then really need to get stronger so that you can give? But how can u feel and be stronger if you renounce what propels you forwards and backwards-your feelings? Your manifold feelings? Eternal recurrence of the same just means this-that you eternally play with sublimating and getting stronger,,,and the only way to do that is to feel strongly again and again, and again, in order to get stronger,,,but how? and how do you realize the change in yourself?
...well, one way is to recognize that you have been transported, enhanced, felt, fully loved, fully recognized, part of a creation, recreating oneself...being part of something, a process wherein you feel changed, exposed, raw, where you feel your essence, where ‘crazy’ takes other meanings, where everything feels so easy that it makes you forget TIME and mere things, where you become ‘little’..., where you acquire wings, where everything is juicer and hotter, where floors disappear under your feet as you touch and are touched, where you melt, where you look for and want the love’s confusing joy, where you feel seen and complete, where your eyes receive light, where they become fuller, focused, and your body strong and highly sensitive, where you follow and are followed with love, where your scream gives so much sense to this existence, where your body freezes and then burns, where you can ‘eat, drink and breathe dance’ infinitely, what makes you YOU, when you feel your full tears being ALIVE, your smile being ALIVE, you being ALIVE...
OR, here's the diet for a quiet and relaxed, and 'happy' existence if you wanna call it that way (without confusing what I think about happiness) and it consists of being content Without risking, feeling strongly, questioning, suffering, creating, dancing, re-evaluating... it consists of feeling less, thinking less, shaking less, scratching less, knowing yourself less, closing yourself more, forgetting more, being shallow, discarding manifold and complex existences, remaining stagnant, parting ways with your flowing blood, trying not to understand your muscles, those of your eyes especially, silencing yourself to achieve more 'balance' if you want call it that, AND you will be pathetically HAPPY! What a diet! You will be like a grain of sand, mixed wonderfully with the infinite others...stagnant! what a beautiful picture....all in peace, stagnant, happy, balanced, content....pathetic never achieved a better picture of itself!!! you wanna change things into beautiful things? then listen: A slow blue trip i want desire to have with you!
YOU CHOOSE! and of course WE know YOU is so manifold and complex you don’t know what makes it, what it entails--- and yet you walk confidently but blindly through a dark forest thinking it’s just the density of the trees that makes everything dark, when in fact it’s just night, dark, nothingness all around you,, because you wanted to come here, to go there, to view the trees and forest from that perspective,,,and now you are lost...SUN is all we need---but what is that, and what does it mean to you?

Nov 14, 2012

Nov 13, 2012

...the beauty of it does not rely on how much it succeeds, and how much pleasure you get by its success, or how much fulfilled you feel in recognizing its success! ...beware of having it become so beat up by utilitarian 'words and feelings', beware that it doesn't become a toy, too much of a conversational toy, beware that it doesn't lose its experiential substance & essence...beautiful things remain beautiful because of their need to contract and expand, act and react, give and receive, attract and repel, LOVE and hate, fluctuate between delicacy and aggressiveness, their need be part of high cold-heat frequencies...especially physically! scratch me slowly in my open wound, scratch me with the sharpest knife you have...TO ME that's a sweet song, sang by a green-blue bird! ...cut me in pieces so that i cry for my pieces, and i travel to the most distant bird houses, to steal their milk and pour it over the wound...pierce me right in the eye..let me feel what butterflies feel when they make love... let me die like one of them- from joy of overcoming the winter, the longest ever!!! come to me delicate dream and caress me with your paws, and then let me decompose in peace...let me decompose while my shaking makes room in the ground- for my wedding with death! I want to marry you earth, seal myself into you, and make peace with cemeteries, those that hold fulfilled and complete lives! (Sept. 2012)

Nov 9-Nov 11, 2012

...walking 35 blocks and listening to beautiful Chavela,,,you realize, besides the fact that deep down you are emotionally moved by her music, voice, persona.... you realize that your hand hurts so much- for continually squeezing the keys in your pocket...we are so physically expressive of our deepest needs- they come through and through in many forms....it just takes too much time to identify the infinite ways of physical expressiveness in our daily lives...but your simplest, and at the same time most complex physicality appears in full light every second of your life...and the most beautiful thing about it IS that you cannot hide IT...you don't have any choice but just BE...until of course you cease to do just THAT...and as always there are many ways of doing/achieving something!!!
but how can you live and feel deeply and strongly and have no 'voice', no movement, no ‘colors’ to express and discharge that energy into Art making--by Dancing, continually?!Everything that is created within you-a scream, a smile, a thought, a memory,,,becomes a possibility--that should be given style and form and life of another kind, a ‘better’ and ‘transformed’ and sublimated kind. That's what I want to do...to make love to life, make it pregnant, give birth to and develop more complex and sublime webs of possibilities out of it !

Nov 8, 2012

During that moment when I think of Moving!!!
During that moment when your eyes will blink , I will turn...when your tongue will move, I will jump...when your thought will want to be with me, I will balance on one foot...when your lips will extend sidewards, I will smile as well...when your hands will tremble from having too much energy, I will discharge mine into the space...when you'll gaze beyond your window, I will triple turn into a fall onto floor...when your entire body will shake and melt from imagining all this being reality, I will stop, feel a full...drop into my legs, smile, take two steps forward, a half turn, a head roll, bending from waist down, melt on floor, roll up, 3 more steps, arms moving uncontrollably around my head as I turn around myself, drop into a deep plié, touch my forehead, propel myself backward, turn , blink, turn, jump, turn, fall,smile, walk on my knees, come up, turn, lift myself in the air, turn, drop, turn, turn, turn, and FLY into your deepest memories, in your MOVING eyes!! !!! And then you won't have any chance of getting away from this gorgeous tornado of connectivity!!! You'll be gloriously absorbed in it!!!...and you'll move--even for just a little bit!!!

Nov 1- Nov 5, 2012

Spanish Notes!
it all begins with elevation!!! elevating oneself to unimaginable heights ....cold thickness in between...extracted from the earthy feeling!!! ...I...distanced into the black essence!!! light feet, light heart, small sounds that disappear quickly into celestial ceilings!!! colors that exist only in possibilities, blueness in disguise, minuses !! what a trick our heart plays when it's elevated!!! what a frightfully beautiful crying, where tears freeze before they even...come into existence!!! what a deep concentrated, and 'unnatural'? tunnel of feelings when floating throughout, extracted, divided into millions of pieces, each carrying a tear, a dance, a smell, a sound, a certain taste, a certain feeling...how much more sublimated can you get? How much lighter? how much more separated into blackness? how much more in need of the smaller point in space called sun? trying to fill in vain the immense possibility of it all!!! trying to complete the smallest thing up here that continually scratches the colorless ceilings...and make it believe that what you are writing about actually has an existent component, one that screams so loudly because it enjoys and feels full--discharging continually that which can only be discharged by dancing on top of the clouds-- i DANCED... challenging the most excited and most erotic gods!!! laugh hard at me!!! Make my stomach come to my mouth because of the lightness, drop wine drops from your mouth into my lips , make me feel the heat of the staring eyes,,, and then carry the most perspicuous part of mine, that which develops out of an unknowable desire to escape, carry it into lands with beautiful trees...an extracted land, a magical one, a special one, one that attracts fulfilling birds, lonely but complete and deep birds, blue birds!!!

and the sporadic sounds continue to define the vastness of space,,,how else can I do it but to feel, slowly, the need to paint the blackness with rays of pure love, or better pure egoism, or even better pure humanness---that which makes us float endlessly and still love with all our being in unimaginable heights!!! I've witnessed a grand and supreme falling !!! I thought my eyes were open before this event,,, but I discovered they were always half closed...how much more blindness do we need to feel FOR the need for heights, complexities, full and heavy tears, an intricate need to exist near almost freezing fountains of sublime water,,,full flowers being born in our secret garden???

...and then the sustained expression of melancholy that pierces through time, shells, altitudes of empty space wanted to be filled with a burning desire covered by blue curtains!!! and then the sustained expression of moving into the wall forcefully and fiercely, as if wanting to sculpt the exotic body into the thickest wall of feelings, of dreams, of beaches with complex and true desires!!! YOU complete!

AND it continues with the descent...into the hard rock, reality! and it continues with the strong desire to keep sculpting!!! feet that feel ...tongue that tastes...eyes fixed towards the dark blue side of it, where everything is gloriously developing!!! Moving with intensity ...that which creates powerful currents of green liquidity!!! Wherein everything that melts becomes it again and again!!! Never ever stop from becoming!!! pluses...pulses! times....presence! an amazing ability to connect strongly, in lost lands...Spanish caravan... melancholic lands, want to transform them into dancing bodies,,, pulses, pluses!!! Warm! Earthy! Breathing sol ! illuminating with delicate palms of those hands that were felt and are feeling! filling emptiness with pulses, pluses, warmth, depth, color, closeness, movement, breath, smiling calmly!!! understanding the smallest change of the interior temperature...feeling the smallest brain wave affecting and producing the darkest thought, the lightest thought, the most penetrating thought! I know those muscles so well! you move from the inside, and I feel the movement in your iris, in your tongue , in your smile, in your pensive second!!!

Create create create, Dance dance dance, shape shape shape, give life, give life, give life, fill fill fill ...and 'things' will not only happen..,they will follow You wherever u go! YOUR destiny,,,so much interconnected with movement!!!

And it continues with the smooth gliding across...a certain sustained expression of control, balance, and calmness after the red reaches the walls of your stomach...and those EYES receive sunlight indefinitely...

a certain melancholic expression of joy is WANTED! Oh what a joy!!! Exploring new grounds! new territories, new people, people, people, individuals...oh how beautiful to see them taking shape and breathing in front of you! experimenting,,, finely,, without being noticed,,,observed closely,,,consciously wanting to misguide,,,in order to preserve the good taste of aged wine!!! feeling,,,too strongly! dancing,,,too potently! so potently that it becomes hard to remain balanced, to balance that energy,,,that unlimited energy! and then you contemplate the uninhibited and undecipherable side of those eyes,,,while seeing deepness,,,and you are being observed,,,all the time,,,and you wish you just were one with 'it' for even a second,,,so that you can smile without the need to be strong! but is that even possible? do I need that possibility for making mine what it is and will be? no,,, no no no,,,smiling with great senses, feelings,,, a great sense of risking,,,of balancing,,,,of sublimating,,,,,that is what I need, all the time!

I can close my eyes if i want,,,dream,,,and make it become reality,,,and I might have that power,,,or at least feel and believe that i have it,,,I just don't want to try now,,,I still love my oldest dreams,,,those that affect differently,,,those that have visited and affected me naturally and easily and strongly and deeply... oh how I wish i was able to show that power in creating and giving life to new things without changing old things much,,,but I know that, that deepest need to have all for yourself can and will destroy vehemently all things that will try to prevent that having all from happening,,,so, then I stop and think,,,and feel, above all feel! and I find that the playing with it,,,the waiting for it becomes much more enjoyable, even if it doesn't come...what keeps me moving must exist even if it's hurting!!! if it doesn’t someone must invent it! knees that feel the pressure lives after! my knees,,,without that weight we cannot feel our bodies physically and spiritually speaking!! then isn't it precisely the suffering the most productive soil potentially speaking? and at the same time the most dangerous and life sucking energy? then what makes it valuable? Isn't if precisely the sublimation that is made possible and grows out of it! those who can sublimate,,,survive beautifully,,,i want it to be MINE,,,those who don't,,,they have already died three hundred times!!! they just need an entire life to understand their death! and they take it!!! pathetic, but maybe necessary?

SO...continuing with imagining,,, transforming with your deepest need and want,,, the grey skies into blue! sublimating emptiness,,, taking it with you to great heights so that you can introduce it to an even greater state of emptiness,,,and you take pleasure in becoming strong again,, light again,, getting closer to colder ceilings,, closer to the sun?...can the sun become cold as you are getting closer to it??? maybe getting away from the sun! maybe getting nowhere in your mind's sun! Is it a circle we are always trying to draw and we get interrupted by things traveling in only one direction?do we ever complete our real drawing? our real circle dance?

oh how I love horses...big eyes,,, long elegant legs,,, powerful and brave spirits!! saw two today and wanted to ride them...so BADLY, to places one can build anything with pure energy and dancing !

It is just interesting that whenever I need the sun the most,,, it comes to me and makes everything easier, brighter, warmer, much more creatively present, it gives smiles to whomever doesn't have them,,, makes room for contemplation and appreciative moments,,, brings back memories,,,preserves juices in lips,,,but overall it melts everything excessively unnecessary and makes that side of you who wants to hide so much appear in full light---no matter the thickness and quantity of your protective 'clothes'...ISN’T this gorgeous?

u know when you so badly want something you will do anything to have it? even forgetting oneself for the sake of it??? life, dance, chocolate, wine, sun, flying, loving, receiving?? anything! anything that keeps your eyes and mind open and active all the time? any action related to the seeking and having it has nothing to do with unconditional love!!!!---it's actually all selfishness ,,,if you want to call it that way,,,harsh but true!!! oh so true!!! that is what’s at play here...or egoism of the highest degree that propels one forward...onwards...upwards... inwards...one has to love oneself first,,, love their being honestly,,, love their desires, wants, 'fine reason', their complexity, love their fate, their trip, their way of being and feeling,,, then one can understand what it means to forget oneself fully,,, for the other,,,but THIS is the only thing we constantly lose grasp of...because of its ephemeral quality,,,u have to be feeling strongly all the time to understand the smallest change in degree when it comes to actions,,your actions...your way of being....your way of doing,,,but above all what you actually do,,because what remains is feeling and never words,,,what remains is strong feelings accompanied and thickened by factual phenomena,,,words just accompany because we want to separate ourselves from monkeys...after all, our much celebrated words just make us understand how close we can be to them,,,so, what is at play here? if it weren't for the complexity we are able to sustain, the boring, one dimensional, shallow, worthy of disgust, single-mindedness, the empty side of it would shine through you, like the truth of your smile,,,no matter how much of a good actor you are...! ,,,after all, simple things are really for monkeys and idiots!

adventuring strongly into things takes time and energy,,,and imagination,,, and braveness,,,and a beautiful spirit!!! a strong body,,,highly focused state, sensitive and big eyes!!! And capriciously fueled feet and heart,,,those that take you or transport you to places almost unconsciously and imperceptibly!!! just because your world is turned upside down,,,shaken,,,filled gorgeously,,,and made felt fuller than ever,,,never stop exploring what you explore best,,,my truest side---and get closer all the time..forever---that's what 'it' told me...and I, honestly warmly, kindly, and lovely, reply: you mean LOVE? and it replied: yes yes,,,,Spanish caravan take me away...into complex lands...where beautiful trees grow...an extracted and unique land..! let’s travel together...Spanish caravan take me away...THAT IS ALL I WANT!

Oct 31, 2012

TO hell with it!!! and….what do i know about ants, spiders, and seahorses....I'm just imagining in order to want to know more about them, to understand them, to feel them, to deeply feel, how they live, how they act, how they die...but how do I know that?..how and where do I look for them, to discover them , to understand their feelings or their way of being? ...or the way they build, the way they cry, the way they sleep and eat, they way they look, the way they clean their bellies, the way they walk, they way they lie down, the way they dance....the way they make love...the way they copulate, the way they have sex? ...i’m just a fucking dreamer...I'm just content with dreaming!..i need a stronger belly, stomach, nose, heart, ear, eye, feet, legs, thighs, abdominal.....to be able to make love to the dream until i make it pregnant...i want my son with THE dream, and possibly resembling Alexander...or the sun...basically a deep blue as his essence...covered with dark chocolate...that continually melts into AN unexpected deep green liquid! ....i want it all...i want it now...now...now...yes, now...now...now--too strong of a green drink..but i want to inhale all of it at the same time...!...now...now...now...!

Oct 29, 2012

...that which comes as a gift filled with blue roses..at night...in your dreams, that one accept it with your whole being! that which comes to you from the loneliest glaciers, that one accept it too with your whole being!!! beauty!!! isn’t it all about possibilities!!! isn’t it all about the feeling of total balance on top of a moving chaos?!!! a total loss of your so called self-control, for one second, so that you can control even better..become even wider, deeper, more loose? oh, how much more afraid we would be if there was just one or two options available to us! how much more secure we would feel and how much more self-control we would have!! But that might as well be the most frightful scenario ever!!! Resign yourself to possibilities, select them--haha--as if there a YOU who does the selecting that is under ‘YOUR’ control...how much do we lose from a second and how much do we gain from an entire life? Who does the choosing, or what doest it, and how? How much do we gain from a second, a blink, an expression of light, a looking into depths, a dance, a smile, a glass of wine, staring into the lion eyes!!! I contemplated happiness and all i’ve really noticed is the eyes moving, constantly...what a gorgeous adventure!!! a circle, a straight line, two parallel moving objects, the heart beating- all of it occurring infinitely in your heart, even imaginatively !!!what more could you possibly want that is more beautiful that possibilities, their existence, their power to suffocate the weak?! a distant cry, I hear a distant cry, it’s that of a lonely wolf, dancing at night...and calling for more and more and more, more light, a fuller moon, a brighter SUN, a more captivating exchange of energies, a more complex forest, a more meaningful war amongst things, a more noble sculpting, light feet so that he can run fast, and dance on fire!!!

Oct 28, 2012...3am :)

...and it goes through you...inside you...it screams in you...develops a gorgeous vortex that sucks the best of you...it dances on your organs... it caresses your most delicate strings....IT changes YOU...and it comes out gloriously complete...ready to be experienced!!! you MOVE and are MOVED by it!!! oh, HOW deep into movement we MUST look in order to find truth!!!...

Oct 28, 2012

...a single look and sound can affect and maybe change the formation of molecules in a moving body. The molecules then rearranged a bit differently produce in you that state where you feel like you do not know a thing-thus the rediscovery of yourself begins...thus a new life within an 'old' one. Thus a new way of experiencing begins and you feel lost, and confused, and indecisive, and dizzy...but of course the very very best rides in this life are the ones where you experience dizziness, a total loss of the idea of coordinates or planes--all is one-- and a total loss of the need to direct the flowing life, like an orchestra conductor--who fucking needs that in nature? nature does not require that to be able to flow and overflow!!! And you marvel at yourself and your experience for giving you such complexity in feeling things deeply, you marvel at the complexity of grand rearrangements-those that flow like aggressive rivers but beautiful in their intensity. WE haven't even started to uncover magnificent mysteries ! ...but I strongly feel it--we WILL--i strongly feel it you know, like i feel the immense energy of the body pushing me against the wall as if IT wanted to beautifully ‘hurt’ me for not being able to change everything around me in one shot...i feel that gorgeous and magnificent energy in you pushing me as if you wanted to insert your feelings into me, into my being, permanently!...i feel that supreme aggressiveness that comes from the depth of your stomach and moves me around the space with light feet. Thus spoke movement when it was being born and it was directed
...building houses on the seashore...on an AFRICAN BEACH-- what a way to kill yourself every day...or to fully feel every single wave as both your best friend and enemy! is it pure momentum that propels you to seashores? ‘unfinished’ momentum? uncompleted momentum that wants to discharge all its energy into you?
I…waited to cool down, but the pain from the deep sound does not go away…trying to forget what is happening but the same very thoughts come back to me even stronger and with an unimaginable intensity! ...trying to forget the crying of the trumpet but all is left is flying to the tops of the mountains to cool down...FLY me on..! fly with me! I’m your flying boy! I…tried to cool down, but…TOGETHER with the water running down unknown and freezing currents...sculpting with potent acids-who knows what gorgeous rocks will be formed as a result?...(Sept. 2012)

Oct 26, 2012

Lift me up slowly...thousands of feet high..let me gently kiss the cloud that's watching with calm eyes and belly....and then drop me from these heights, drop me hard into rocks sculpted by the sea...and make me part of them, I would even accept to be the food for the sea creatures that feed from the rocks...the rocks sculpted by the sea...let me be eaten, accumulate life....and lift me up again...I'm just attached to processes, the ones that are propelled only by movement...exciting movement...movement that excites greatly and slowly...movement that opens the mouths of the butterflies...like flowers!...lift me up again and again, and let me fall gently into fields full of insects, and pianos, and guitars---I'll teach them how to make songs that celebrate the skies, that celebrate colors, that celebrate eyes! Lift me up again and hold me in mid air, and then have the archers exercise on my body...oh how soft and magnificent of an event that would be! oh how I would sing my favorite song to end each second of it with nuanced and colorful cadenzas! Lift me up and hold me suspended in terror like states and shapes-pierce my body inch by inch just to leave a sign.... pierce it inch by inch with vibes, color, sound, movement, iris, touch, pierce it with looks...EVERYDAY!
...oh gorgeous sound!...oh gorgeous music that fills everything with pain!!!...oh gorgeous melody that takes the pain away from you and transports it into superclusters of feelings...deep in space-the vertical space!!!...oh gorgeous fish!...thousands of feet underwater... superbly sculpting the alluring sand...superbly sculpting your sensuality into the sand...and for what? - to be able to magnetically connect, attract, secure your favorite prey, and make love to it- in order to discharge that superabundant energy--all great things need a beautiful surface, only so that they preserve the act of revealing the phenomenon of sublime only deep under their skin, deep under their sculptural sensuality! MAKE me part of it!

Oct 24, 2012

My connection with BLUE!

...[{repeat}]...The day when the sweet sound from the ocean created a butterfly effect was the day when you took your first confident step...what a glorious event! How I love confidence! It was like seeing you lose power... and gain even more power of a different kind- a kind that only a genuine and pure soul would understand and appreciate! That night was the same night when I imagined and dreamt of flying machines. The same night when I dreamt- glorious and scary dreams, but full, oh so full! Even more the ‘same’ night when something indescribable, elusive, and impalpable transferred from your body to mine!...at some point your dreams become who YOU are!

That power, the kind of power and energy that only those who move and fly can understand--oh my little precious second, minute, day, SUN!- what would I do without you?- you make me breathe delight itself, you make me experience suffering in a glorious way!...a way that becomes necessary for happiness! YOU CANNOT detach from me! My blueness!!!...maybe from all the rest but not from me--I’m too warm and mysterious, too much giving and filling you, too much understanding of your thought-processes, your blinking, a rare knowing of your insides, a corporeal connection of a different and unique kind, a mutual Need and Want that is slowly but infinitely increasing, a crazy and almost imperceptible attachment- an attachment of a special kind, a subtle but powerful attachment, one that gets its source from millions of light years away from here!!! YOU CANNOT detach from me- NEVER! Deep down your most basic and minuscule particles of your being know it! They know it! They know it pretty well!

YOU CANNOT detach from me! Always connected! My connection with blue. I know and feel too much of what makes you YOU- I allow for the darkest secret (yet to be told to me, or shown , or unfolded--you carry the SUN in you- I feel it- you want to show me your oldest shells and their insides, but there is time for that!!!), and I silence myself joyfully, and smile as i see the reflection of myself in your eyes and say: Where has my watch gone? and the sea responds: Your watch is melting my friend, it is melting right now, you just cannot see it, but you can feel it! Also, your being is melting my friend, don’t forget YOU have to give form to it, after you have seen its gorgeous catastrophic dance! Do not forget to give IT form! ...and then i make even MORE room for incomprehensibilities, unreasonableness, inconsistencies, I make room for a strange unpalatability, for strangeness itself , for craziness! I make room for shallowness, blankness, greyness, prolonged silences. All that majestic interconnectedness destroys the need for formalities, for unnecessary thought-processes, for the annihilation of the purest and deepest instinct- it was like witnessing the thorns melt and reveal the voluptuous blue body that carried unimaginable and rare juices!

...that confident step was followed by another one, and another one after that, and you were gliding superbly across! Oh, what else matters in looking for truth, the sweet truth, but the rarity of the gliding feet across the ocean! Those tender and yet courageous feet! Those feet that not only do not care for obstacles but they delight in their presence- they delight in being challenged, they delight in having a promising and alive ocean to glide on!...onward for more!!!...

Oct 22, 2012

How much lighter do I need to get? How much more balanced, reasonable? how much thicker does my skin have to be? Where are the opposites, where in space do they extend to? where and how does one accumulate splendor, sugar, interconnectedness? how does one preserve qualities? where do we ‘go’ during blinking? what are ants thinking about during sex? what does the lion learn from his life? how does one sleep with eyes open? how do you smile with your nose? and how does that affect your lips? what happens to all TIME when it reflects upon itself? is blood=need? how does one survive fakeness? why do we need question marks? Why the melancholy of beings? how is patience related to good music? how does one reconcile the spiders’ intent with the flowers’ scent? What do emptiness and the alignment of the stars have in common?

Oct 21, 2012

AUSENCIA
The day when the sweet sound from the ocean created a butterfly effect was the day when you took your first confident step...what a glorious event! How I love confidence! It was like seeing you lose power... and gain even more power of a different kind- a kind that only a genuine and courageous soul would understand and appreciate! That night was the same night when I imagined and dreamt of flying machines. The same night when I dreamt- glorious and perplexing dreams, but full, oh so full! And so real, oh so real!!! Even more the‘same’ night when something indescribable, elusive, and impalpable transferred from your body to mine!...at some point your dreams become who YOU are!

Oct 19, 2012

Oct 17, 2012

My ‘usual’ state of ...’performing’...before and after...

YOU think, and think, and think, and think….and boom IT vanishes! You feel, and do, and feel and do, and feel and do, and dance…and it comes back to you!!!
I adore the heaviness of the deep blue curtain that holds hidden jewels in its belly…the lightness of the air behind it!!! The supreme aroma of the unsurpassable flesh…the fantastic body that metamorphoses into a fountain!!! …milk and honey you get from it…holding tight until it melts into craziness…heart beating so fast and necessarily that you think it’s composing rhythms that accompany uncontrollably, faithfully, courageously and desirably!... the iris that sees, feels, touches, moves, smells, senses deeply the need for more and more, and starts burning, cools down, burns again, and repeats the process continually throughout- an authentic expression of overabundance and strength, and butter and salt since there is an overabundance of milk!!! The weight of the palms of the hands that caress, feel and prepare the feet, torso, belly, hip joints, rib cage, shoulders, neck, head- for the performance, the big performance! When does performing start? Does it start with the taking of the final steps toward the stage, or is it really the passion behind the curtain that keeps everything alive, and flowing, and ready? Who sees and feels that? But there’s no need to ‘know’ it, to show it, to inscribe it in the common book of knowledge. One has to be prepared to be lonely with their novel…it exists separately, uniquely, individually, secretly… The audience sees the shell that envelops a myriad and plethora of feelings!!! And if this is true, is then having, maintaining, curating, extending, cultivating, appreciating, nurturing then precisely this element, the great passion for things , performances, and mostly for behind the curtain ‘preparatory’ work, is it precisely this the most special, unique, and precious element that one HAS even before coming onto stage? How does one cultivate that? You can’t teach it. That’s for sure- one has to ‘feel’ it, even if they are alone in its uniqueness…One has to discover themselves through it, one has to suffer with it-great passion involves suffering!

…Like the flapping of the birds’ wings you find yourself in motion that creates waves, and you cannot assess their magnitude! You raise the curtain and you find yourself on the streets of life, waiting for the yellow to arrive---and you only want blue…yet the waiting becomes a supreme excitement that reflects light in whatever direction in the night…unafraid of being seen, touched, felt, looked at, explored, getting wet ‘in the rain’, getting late, getting there, getting nowhere, getting more and more and more….And you come back to the stage…there is life says the dancer---yet behind the curtain there’s life says the mover, the discoverer, the wanderer, the one who feels strongly and with light feet, and breath, and movements- those who sculpt and send their work in progress to the stars for feedback, always close to the window as if to look out and remain sure that the world is still turning and they are not dreaming!!!

Oh, cannot explain IT without saying a few words…..THIS... and why should I even find a name for it? You know what to get from it even if you are not offered a title--for me it is the most special, unique, energy-giving, magnetic like experience , fulfilling, weird, exciting, supreme, juicy, full of milk, confusing, different, the hardest shaking of my 'fixed' ideas about life, an impossible and at the same time so possible connection between Z stars that are galaxies apart, getting closer to experiencing SUN, profound delight in touching and feeling movement in every sense, eating up with eyes the entire being, muscles that feel the pressure with gratitude days after...energy that moves you in spaces...and so much much more-...I've said so much about what it is and might become for me...I’ve said so much about it that all is needed now is just finding repose in EYES… deep three dotted blueness that forcefully attracts!!! I just have to take a cold bath for I want to experience deepness in a flash---quickly into it and quickly out of it so that I decrease the chances of drowning in my own heaviness...lightness is OF dancers! This is DANCING- but isn’t it fundamentally different for everyone? …and yet what a tremendous need we have to GIVE names! We feel better around words. Striving for nobility of feelings within the realm of doing!

Very true-coming back to IT means re-evaluating constantly and not because you need reassurance on moving with poise and control, but mostly because each time you come back onto stage you find an immense field filled with possibilities, new ones and old ones you did not have time to discover the last time!!! Is the curtain hiding something this way or preserving? Or is it baking stuff all the time!!! Eternal preparation for a performance, if only the performance starts and stops with something, and we KNOW it doesn't -we are constantly performing---where then does the stage begin and end? eh … just catching myself repeating questions that have been asked so long ago. Can we then discover ourselves from our past without offending the future's ego? ....becoming a femto-human...the first step to 'understanding' or 'capturing' in its totality the unbearable vastness of movement possibilities...I don't just want to know more, I want to feel more. I want to imagine more. I want to fly more-only in this sense would I bear knowledge!!! . But understanding involves both temporal directions -backwards and forwards, and also what's in between...

But how can we feel more when we have constructed rigid and decadent veils for the sake of 'knowledge'?- we need [illusory] veils that would fall in love with 'impossibilities'-the veil of Art....we have constructed pyramids in honor of death or some other life !!!! I want to destroy them and build new ones that celebrate life--eternally playing with dangerous and crazy toys! Eternally femto-feeling and femto-sensing Movement, and not what's beyond it ! We MUST start from here...but you shouldn't accept the MUST , at least not without trying the possibility...and then you experience it yourself and YOU CHANGE so much that you cannot remember what you were before the change!!! Am I then saying that devising an END cannot really work? Precisely because there is NO such thing, except only conceptually. One has to subject themselves to sublimation...and appreciate the unfolding of life thereof...

Enter forcefully...each time you fly into IT !
(August 2012)

Oct 14, 2012

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Softness and hardness !.. {--a ‘constant’ in strong relations--}
reason speaks- like a raven who wants revenge, clearly and forcefully,
it comes in full splendor to change that part of you,
which needs to remain deeply planted in perfect balance,
you listen, you swallow the intensity of whatever it commands you to do,
powerful currents of thoughts rush towards you and transport you to that balanced state,
you tremble because it communicates what you really NEED- in order to avoid suffering...suffering???...
or just feeling and being totally vulnerable???...suffering...!!!
how much more can your neck endure?
you see yourself breaking in two or more pieces,
and each one of them finds reasons to fight against the other parts’ reasons...
and then silence makes this battle so much more chaotic, and much more unbearable...
the silence that takes many shapes....
in an unknown and windy state you want to protect your candle’s light...
talk to me or we might risk forgetting ourselves, what makes the essence of it!
magical night take my reasons with you and bury them in the moon,
your coldness-we might risk forgetting- your coldness- almost unbearable
keep your light on, and I acquire wings, i need lightness...
that silence, that sour silence...
do you freeze yourself, are you shrinking?
do you feel you are forgetting the meaning of things?
do you feel you are forgetting at all?
do you know how it feels? do you still feel? do you still LIVE? do you still feel ALIVE?
those seconds, those waiting seconds, those seconds when you wait, forever...
and I acquire wings, I need lightness, I need to fly !
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it might just be a reactive propeller that has my darker thoughts bounce from wall to wall,
it might just be a song that needs more instruments to fall complexly in love with its possibilities,
it might just be emptiness waiting to be filled with ALIVEness, waiting to be FULL,
it might just be a dead place ready to be resurrected by high body frequencies that speak,
it might just be softness and hardness that want to realize themselves, to discharge their energy,
it might just be an eternal desire to feel full and wanted by the most sophisticated expressions,
it might just be a soft sound that wants to cry in the presence of a lonely and nightly owl,
it might just be babies feet that march into the unknown with the spirit of an old bald eagle,
it might just be an endless wandering into the core fibers of solitude,
it might just be a very cold winter approaching with aggressiveness,
it might just be the persistence of memory that melts things down,
it might just be the the flower’s gorgeous mouth or the mouth’s superb flower-like shape & scent,
it might just be a different kind of juice, of an irresistible matter,
it might just be the hotter and juicier moving, behind the blue curtain,
it might just be a hungry state for greater and greater things, higher and higher,
it might just be an overpowering expression of grand and noble passions...
i feel a sound, a friendly one, coming from the depths of of the raven’s throat, chest, stomach...
and caressing the soft side of my bones, & wishing them health in this freezing winter...
I feel a sound, a glorious sound produced by the immersion of SUN in BLUE...!!!
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Oct 13, 2012

My connection with BLUE
You know when IT comes from the depth of solar systems right into your eyes' fibers?--I KNOW it--it shoots through you...it takes you into unknown places so fast that you don't even have time to blink, and it changes you completely and you feel complete, and it gives you new eyes for you want to see and be seen...and then you feel like deeply wanting to touch the star's body with your hands, every inch of that body...and become forever entangled in sensual complexity...and return the favor to the stars by sending exotic bubbles that carry sea creatures, those that have lived and danced deep in the ocean...wherein the only light is being produced by the intensity of their desires, their need to communicate, a new way of communicating, understanding , and feeling, a way that is inspired purely by the unknown...

Oct 12, 2012

And the difference between what you were and felt and what YOU ARE now and feel will always remain hidden deep in the most honest and genuine affirmation of LIFE-[of a second, a minute, a day, a month, a year, a life]! Possibilities, possibilities, possibilities! ...variations, variations, variations!...details, details, details! They make everything so beautiful and light, so needful and mysterious, and yet so painful and necessary- as my deepest need now is to have necessary things! But what is necessary, what will become necessary, what will remain necessary, forever? Is this a fruit whose sugar will sweeten the sour inability to know? Or is it what keeps things from collapsing into a weak and bleak nothingness?! Is it the need to be true to yourself, and stay away from fakeness, from the fake need to convince yourself about there just being one answer, one way, one sound, one touch, WHEN there's really a MULTITUDE embracing your existence? ... a manifold state and experience- embrace it, live it, believe it! Trying to convince, especially yourself, about what IS NOT and cannot be, is the most poisonous way of treating your seconds, minutes, days, years, life! Or is it just the need to be encapsulated in the process of creation...infinitely?...but only a few remain strong enough to bear the intensity of the SUN-have to make peace with that fact!

Oct 11, 2012

Forgetting forcefully or even trying to forget forcefully, especially the most supreme seconds, the ones that changed you miraculously and with a special twist that you will feel for centuries to come, THAT is the ultimate act of murdering, negating, destroying YOUR most precious...or at least part of WHAT you have lived, a big PART, the part that made beautiful things possible! Possibilities, possibilities, possibilities! ...variations, variations, variations!...details, details, details!

Experiencing time in a very peculiar way! Stretching as a rubber band! But this peculiarity is reliant on your peculiar memory. Strong and active memory has to inspire a strong and memorable experience! But sometimes, weak memory also inspires a strong and memorable experience! So, what brings everything into cohesive whole, a whole that is glued together strongly, that is remembered strongly, and is felt strongly? What is the glue made of? Is it made of desires, more memories, the splendor of wanting more of the same, missing fullness, touch, hands, mysterious sunspots in the eye, a stupendous coral on the hand? becoming a coral! Remembering things among so many- sounds, glorious sounds, transient movements, oh how i want to be able to keep all of that in me!!! ...but it is in me, it is preserved in me ‘without me noticing’. It gets thicker through time and makes part of my growing in the same way corals grow- by accumulation - the best of all, through grains of ‘experiences’.

TIME then will pass so quickly. I guess it will depend on the quality that you attribute to what you remember! But time will pass so quickly! OR NOT! I am not necessarily looking for a definite answer. I just think that the process of asking itself, asking ourselves genuinely and honestly, is the only way to get closer to what we are, for ourselves and the others..Establishing the connection I-YOU!

Now, imagine living through seconds, thinking them, feeling them, breathing them, eating them, caressing them, pushing them, negating them strongly, affirming them strongly, kissing them slowly, hating them, loving them, having ambivalence toward them, reacting to them, reacting to what makes them longer, reacting to what makes them shorter, reacting to the peculiar way one second is attached to the other, by us, progressively, ad infinitum- and as you imagine, react, live, think, breathe and construct complexity and interconnectedness, YOU have necessarily lived a million times slower, lighter. You have placed yourself in the middle of vast possibilities and you have thus become a possibility yourself! A beautiful one!

Oct 10, 2012

inexplicable, irresistible, irrevocable!!!..that's the very nature of it! embrace it!
perpendicularly, horizontally, diagonally--'take' the best of me and make it one with the sea. My Ants- help me!!!

Oct 9, 2012

what happens after a second, a minute...?
...where does this desire to anticipate an event, a yes, a no, or an in between come from? tell me? Is it just weakness that expresses itself through this pitiful need to know the second that is encapsulated in the future’s sublime shell? Or is it just pure curiosity? I catch myself showing more of the former as soon as I ask the second question, or even think it! Ha! How can it be just curiosity? In principle I dislike to know anything about the second coming after ‘this’ one...i want to feel it. That’s is why I know my feelings either have their quanta of power, or somehow I ‘give’ it to them through this inexplicable transferring and morphoses of my wants and desires into pure conceptual and abstract ideas, ideas about the What and the Why, and the How of the future’s seconds, minutes etc etc...Do we in general have this need to make abstract the simplest and most delicate sounds that come from our brain waves dancing together? What is feeling then, how is it produced? Where exactly it originates and resides throughout its journey, its life, its trajectory? Does it remain the same all the time or it starts as something else and becomes something completely different on its way...? Does it ever remain stagnant in terms of its contents?

And what good will it do to YOU or the second you are so inclined to celebrate, if you ‘KNEW’? How will it help You, if what you really need is ‘help’? Am I just really talking about feeling ‘better’ or JUST GOOD all the time?-- this most boring way of experiencing the seconds, the minutes, the days, etc etc? Ah, but how much clearly I know that what WE CAN ONLY do is ask questions and wait, wait, wait, an active waiting, for an answer that resembles or actually IS made out of the same molecules that make the most basic drive- the drive that propels us ‘forward’...forward? Ha! Tell me what and where forward is when I feel with my entire being, and I will tell you the deepest secret of the universe as a consequence! But YOU have to communicate it first, and its means are infinite like the contents of possibilities themselves!

Oct 6, 2012

A strange desire to LOOK UP...higher...beyond...after it...through it...in it...for it...because of it...as a consequence of it being there...And yet, i am continuously and increasingly looking OUT...a slight change in the degree of the angle of your neck & head will make the whole difference! Amazing!...but we just need to be reminded sometimes!

Oct 5, 2012

...a blue breath, a green touch!

...a blue breath, a green touch, shapeless & rigorous red air, a colorful moment, changed senses embellished by delicate shells, a yellow need to escape, to be somewhere else, a white ability to freeze a scene, a crimson necessity to imagine windows, to open windows, an implosive green-black scream! Who has the spirit to recognize the majestic painting unfolding before you?--Carpe Diem! --I painted a blue window, one that opens by sheer energy!...opens and reveals possibilities...for you...then seahorses walk through it, enter, stop, face each other, fill the empty space by just existing, and arch their bodies to infinity...as if they are reaching to complete their bodies in circles...

it all begins with bending or melting, then magnificently shaping yourself therein...I can just BE, I want to just BE, I need to just BE, no other choice but just BE, I love to just BE, I will just BE, I will let myself just BE, what I think is just part of just what i want to BE, what I feel is just part of just what i want to BE, what I miss is just part of just what i want to BE, a big part, a huge part, an important part, therefore I just infinitely and helplessly 'desire' to just BE...WHO I AM--changed by continuous sculpting, a sublime form of sculpting!

Oct 1, 2012

Whoever tried to 'understand' or to 'know' themselves purely on extreme rational terms has already resigned themselves to the most boring and decadent way of being and living! Simplifying and making everything darker and shallow for the sake of knowledge means losing and living outside that complexity that makes for a tremendously sublime experience!

The veins always remain fresh even though its the same juice that runs back and forth every day--Well! Is it the same though? Where, why, how does the change happen? Where exactly? How does it affect the veins, and itself actually!

I believe 'we' affect ourselves or get affected by the smallest changes taking place in and around us...even when we strictly and with certainty think that we are the same person before and after a blink...

A change in temperature, perspective, look, stretching of the neck, position of the sun, density of the clouds, frequency in repetition...tick tock, tick tock- and YOU are growing...OR shrinking!

September 30, 2012

The point where movement and I meet has an elusive character, but beautiful? It's like trying to find where in the blood, as it moves through veins in your body, the most intense exchange happens-in terms of the force of the currents created and developed! The magnificent blood, the moving juice, my body’s wine!
Those seconds, those glorious seconds when melting becomes audible, every unnecessary noise around you disappears, the windows open to allow for ‘strong’ flying, the vibration and shaking become life-giving expressions, and hands become waves that envelop with amazing potency!...and you become ONE....one piece, a drop of honey, a butterfly’s wing, an owl’s eye, or just a tender dance composed by a flower...i want this to repeat as a tick tock, an eternal tick tock.... it is soooooooooooo addictive!...always fly towards me, into me, into my eyes you glorious seahorse!

September 24, 2012---11pm

The ultimate control over things and yourself is achieved through an honest, pure in this sense, flowing, and abundant giving of energy that keeps plants alive--and what kind of energy is it? and where does it come from that keeps plants alive you would ask?and I would tell you that I don't fucking know with certainty--who knows anyway? What keeps them alive might be just water, just sunlight, or just a good soil, or just a continuous striving, or just the need to survive? or all of the above? or nothing of the above? It might actually might be its purpose itself that propels them to live--which in turn might just be the need to exhaust itself positively throughout its life! Or might it be the desire to be complex, colorful?

The ultimate control then is not present when you try to control, or try to give names to everything, or try to freeze one concept or second into something that is unchangeable....control actually becomes present when you let go of ‘controlling’ and fuse yourself with the unfolding of whatever carries light into eyes!!!

Do plants have their own reason? Or their quantum of reason within them? Reason as reason that accompanies-not ONE that leads!! Whatever leads, if there is a leader, needs to be unreasonable to the point of becoming the reason's shell---embracing it? Only in this way i would accept changeable states that still stay gorgeous and sophisticated... any other way or thing that is not made for change will decompose into nothingness without you feeling the need to hold on to it!!!...I need it...i need it...i need it...as long as I believe that the plants I care for and water everyday do have the strength to change and still remain the same!!!

Being cold does not necessarily involve the absence of warmth! It just involves the need to be cold! Being warm necessarily involves the presence of cold! We become warm because we TRULY feel the truth of being afraid to be cold! Whoever wants to bear the truth of being cold and the cold truth, should be alone!!! It’s better for their health! You need superabundant energy and better if it’s of a special kind if you want to LOVE Water your plants with energy...MOVE THEM INTO THE SUN...every single day!

September 24, 2012

...ballerina...
the slowest melody traveling through you immensely fast... the piano notes striking you inside your flesh and move IT... your weak conscious state cannot remain balanced for even a second! Every single chord shaking something inside you... perpetually...Every single note going through your ears with the speed of light...
your shattered state dancing toward a small death, shedding whatever is unnecessary!
the radiation of a single note through your pale eyes... the closing during that eternal second....who has strength to wait for a second?... your entire being, feeling an unbearable pain, being born from the remnants of that exchange! every single ant that sings your death song... every single spider’s bite that wants to tango with you, & wants to steal your most valuable thing the waiting for the pale eye to become juicer and free again, and full of life? … the drying of the OLD skin- take my paleness with you and bury it deep into the stars! your rediscovery- the self realizes itself in a dream filled with dreams-thousand dreams deep! Every repetition of that melody that can move stars with its gorgeous subtleness! Every supreme gift- your juice, your tear, your delicate smile, your most precious second!
your entire being, in pain, an unbearably beautiful pain, born out of that sublime exchange!

September 19, 2012

Expand and contract
...deepening your gaze for the sake of getting closer to that supremely exciting world of 'seeing' through and through...the projection goes so far into the core of the SUN, that it paints emotions in space or irises! ...more than this would actually mean to have the craving to adopt the intensity of another pair of eyes...or maybe to adopt just the eyes themselves...because you feel the need to become one with that experience !!! Expand and contract please--- receive my light and play and make love to it...

September 18, 2012... 1:20am-1:50am

Remembering and forgetting!!! This continuing clash between two life sustaining forces! Yes, life sustaining! …Or life enhancing! Or life-destroying, depending on the perspective and the kind of balance between them!! Remember that night? Remember when words flying from your mouth into distances...became part of the expanding universe, grains of sand within galaxies, water drops into oceans, subtle sounds from turtle whispers, in the dark night?! Remember the feeling of their expansion and fusion into nothingness?! Remember that night when the wind became your only enemy, the wind that so abruptly took everything with it to unknown places? Places that had no name? Remember yourself running after the fading sensibility of the color, touch, silhouette, physical presence, shadow, or whatever is lively inside, whatever MAKES life what it is and has you standing? Remember you running after it from fear of losing IT, remember running after it to try to preserve the smallest image, feeling, memory? …to engrave IT in you?...Or to engrave yourself in it from fear of losing yourself? Remember being afraid of your feet getting paralyzed from fear of collapsing into disappearing grounds? Remember someone died from sadness that day and you wanted to have that memory in you- so that you would never walk that road? Remember people collapsing from fear of NOT having contact anymore. Remember your deep need to get stronger that day when rain was coming down hard and washing everything away? Remember actually getting stronger because you felt the presence of something else making you stronger? WHY and for WHAT do you, divine fish, become stronger? Remember the falling...the continuous falling into stagnant states and remember your sweet madness pulling you out of those states, because you wanted to LIVE and LOVE-the clock’s second hand becoming the real Thing for you? Remember hanging from it to affect its speed? Remember looking from that spacious and macabre thing ‘suspended’ in the air, looking back through the big windows and seeing ONE moving by itself? Remember the deep desire to do the opposite- to look at that big white thing going away from you and never being affected even for a second? Remember the stoicism of your eyes, while crying from within, but still hurting whatever you love most out of LOVE—from necessity? …For what matters at the end of the day is the direction in which you travel or more precisely the orbit of it!!! One single step outside of that perfect orbiting distance and you freeze, or disappear into unknown spaces- spaces that have NO NAME...or simply move away from the SUN…how can spaces that are horribly distant from the SUN even have a name?...NO, I will not accept—it would mean to do great injustice to things that can shine- not everyone has the skin for that!!! Remember the flying, and the flying machines, and how your dreaming of them made their coming into existence possible? Remember the feeling? Remember when you melted and the floor beneath you shifted uncontrollably ...what exactly do you remember?!...

Can you recall, fully and precisely, in the most faithful way what was actually felt? Oh how different we would be if we were able to store in our memory every single second of a day in a way that we are conscious of it and can recall all of that overwhelming experience all at once if we need too! How different then we would experience 'things' and phenomena and relate to them! How different would our relationship to everything be!!! Storing every single and smallest movement of the eye, movement of the blood, movement of the energy in our bodies...remembering every pull, push, contact, touch, resistance, ...remembering every single thought that crosses our minds and its effect on us...remembering every beginning middle and end of every small activity in its minutest detail... Remembering every little going-inside, inward, deep into deepness, at heart, towards it, towards the bottom, in IT, and discovering new things-things that otherwise would escape you in your finite experience...where does this strong desire to collect, store and remember come from? Is it just a necessary activity in order to stay alive, feel alive, and remain supremely sensitive? Do we have any idea about HOW and WHY the selection of precisely those seconds that get stored happen but most importantly why?! ...What do you do in order to capture and save 'majestic' moments- those that you live through so powerfully but yet are as fleeting as ever. Are then great and sublime things supposed to have an ephemeral nature.. how then do you 'capture' them--how do you make them come to you whenever you want them back?---Through Art-one whispers, the old turtle whispers, the seahorse sings- through art--through creation, through that eternal sublimation of the same 'material'---re-discovering in them what you need in them- a re-confirmation of the most beautiful feelings!-- read somewhere about an artist who constantly reused his previous sculptures as the material for its next work because he did not have more materials----‘destroying’ your most loved thing in order to create an even more beautiful thing! Isn’t this then the supreme creative activity applied to Art and Life…’destroying’ the most beautiful things you have for you want to create and carve an even more beautiful thing out of them!! Higher and higher!...infinitely and eternally sublimating in order to feel FULL!

September 18, 2012...

a...b...c...d...e...etc etc ...bullshit...just stare at the f..ing dots and find the f..ing meaning !!! ...or just f...ing fill them up...with juice!!! Just f...ing sing & dance with me...so that the damn sounds and movement might transform themselves into walking seahorses...and you get taller...and you can touch the sky- delicately!!!..for f...ing years to come! After all, what is and must stay supremely delicate needs to appear as a monster first!

September 10, 2012...

Dasein
Ohhhhhhhh man ! I want to...implode...explode...into millions of pieces...and reassemble in synchrony ! What a song !!! What a delight it is to HAVE such great beings who FEEL so deeply about music, dance...things......anything that allows for deepness, and to be able to recognize them, to learn from them, to get inspired, to be happy that they were shared with you...to be able to find yourself in them....to be able to say thank you for changing me even a little ...to be able to laugh and cry at the majestic nature of them that allows for richness and deepening!!!--to be able to say I love you for what you are creating around me... how beautiful it is to be 'part' of them-- as if they were written for you...only for you... only for you... only for you... only for you... how deeply delightful to be able, one day, as you walk with million thoughts in your mind, to select a few that celebrate the second-- the second that envelops centuries and millenniums of noble feelings...noble smiles...noble tears, and promise your fast metabolism more and more and more....How delightful to be able to select those seconds that best encapsulate your year so faithfully- how delightful to condense and feel powerful enough for condensation…everything else materialistic is going to be forgotten soon- only the CHANGE and FEELING OF IT remains so engraved in your bones and skin- the bones and skin that need continues sun to thrive… how majestic to be able to forget what should not count…how majestic to be waiting to see how one wants so necessarily and deeply to come back to the sound, to the movement, to the window, to the synchrony of it all, not because of what was written and said (they are never enough)-but because of what was FELT and LIVED. How majestic to know that you can never choose to stop feeling---YOU can only recognize and become aware of it...how majestic to be able to affect greatly for years to come...how majestic to be able to come back to things even stronger…even more sensitive…and allow the music and movement take you into unknown states…how majestic your whole phenomena would appear under the SUN if you FELT completed at any point in time without stopping to think- how majestic to recreate and give form to yourself against the river’s strong currents! How majestic to feel the need to STAY with yourself and never abandon the truer side of you—the one that continually speaks with the strongest and purest voice… How majestic it is to NOT LEAVE your blue room unchanged! How even more majestic it is to return to it at night and feel the sound that once moved you uncontrollably and made part of you what it is now! How even more majestic to WANT to fill your room with real colors- and actually DO IT ! How majestic it is to be able to feel the night dream realizing itself not in the morning but in the afternoon- the great afternoon when you contemplate everything calmly and serenely ---and say thank you to the continuous experience- or just simply and sublimely say thank you to that part of you-however it came into existence- that is ALIVE---enough deadness even for a second…today is a new day- Let's celebrate forever…and dance forever… ---I--- want to have you in my life forever- that is what your body told its energy in secrecy- and they became one!!! NOW ONLY stupidity and weakness would separate them again!
Baaar

September 9, 2012...

I guess I have always been fascinated with searching for the meaning of the PRESENT--- This little writing from early 2004 or maybe earlier, do not remember very well, tells me a lot about myself @ 19 years old, and what was I preoccupied with: namely that very search that now takes different layers and forms, but is essentially the same-- Pina's words come to my mind now when she talks about that longing, that eternal longing that we have for something that we are not quite sure how to define and grasp...still less sure about experiencing the essence of it---we are just drawn to it perpetually---and have to love it to remain superabundant beings in our richness in terms of valuing the noble unfolding of LIFE that flows thereof from this LOVE giving and receiving activity...It is strangely a bit more abstract that I would want it to be :)--but I am not changing it because I just want to remember myself @ 19 and see the difference in development at least in terms of writing :)). I also translated it from albanian, and I feel that it sounds pretty different...anyway...oh and ALSO for some reason i remember that while i was writing this and some other pieces that I am going to translate and post soon, I was listening to a song by U2 called 'Your Blue Room'---somehow that song put in states that it's hard to describe but basically that they were polarized states !!! :)

DUBTEN
The place was called ‘Tarin’. It was terrifyingly big. It was cold. It was not welcoming...He entered that bar situated among perplexed buildings. He came from far away! His steps were heavy like the steps of an agelong soldier. The stillness and quiteness there was unimaginable...The bar’s walls were rough and dirty and the smell of the LIFE without Eyes and Ears covered even the smallest holes with the biggest desire. Everyone in that bar had their own place, seat, ‘situation’...And no one would talk. Silence reigned from time immemorial , and would eternally hold philosophic discourses ! An alcoholic drink called ‘DUBTEN’ was the waitress there-- I thought NOTHING was being served there, except emptiness! Well, after all there is something being served in every place! The drink would bring everything that was needed. Everyone one had their own specific dose- and they took it regularly. NOTHING was moving there! There would come hundreds everyday, to join...! They would enter the bar, would take their own daily dose, and centuries without sound and eyes would start for them. They would drink quiteness without taste. DUBTEN would close your ears, nose, mouth...it would numb your feet, your body, your hands, and it would leave you only able to somehow sense an highly ordered and ‘clean’ catastrophe, without end...
MAYBE, in the moment that he 'moved' and made a sound... there, right then and there...in that very moment would have started what 'we HAVE'...basically another one in here!!! (2004)

September 8, 2012...

...In search of the meaning of 'PRESENT'...

...when even the smallest movement of the iris...expresses the need to get lost in millenniums of intense feelings !!!...you delight in becoming layered and more complex...and enraptured by the music that IT creates, YOU engrave in your memory the pure joy of experiencing the minutest energy waves as the most powerful of all touches...and you say: I'm in love with you 'Present'...COME again and again !!!....The 'Present' comes back to you and envelops you gently in its arms...and what you thought as being gentle it is now morphing into a burning desire-- a desire to hear 'IT' say: I'm in love with you too ! ...and suddenly seconds, minutes, hours, days, months, years, centuries and millenniums 'feel' different: they have become more sensitive...that's why the burning feels like burning when morphoses happens- not because of the increase in temperature, but from the increase of sensibility in the realm of 'HOW' with respect to experiences!!!

September 5, 2012... 9:37pm-9:42pm

...In search of the meaning of 'PRESENT'...

..writing in a flash…so that you feel the intensity and the energy of every single letter… a stream of energy that captivates the entire body and affects it molecularly…to the point of feeling an electrical shock—when there’s fluctuating signals that desperately want to dance because they know you are near IT—near the point that brings you closer to experiencing what it really means to think and imagine those powerful exchanges of electro-magnetic phenomena… it is like experiencing color through the screen--- The color is not really there—colors as the instant creation of your brain that wants to come to LIFE, because of the signals that they receive from the most potent colors --- I want to be able to affect the color ‘you’ see just by sheer desire!!!

September 5, 2012...

...In search of the meaning of 'PRESENT'...

Mountain after mountain---your feet get rough--- walking long distances- feeling the burning sand on the beach---repeating the cycle again and again because it fulfills....Mountain--beach, mountain--beach... until EYES find repose and peace in EYES...smelling the wind with its unsurpassable scents--- scents from the shells that persist in their remembrance of things throughout the day---the scent of an exhaustive beach that feeds itself carefully collected energy from SALT; the beach that burns and get burned under the most potent of fusion processes. The waves hit the strings of memory and they bring melting shells into your mind!!!...the concave shape of your existence ...does wonders when you are sensitive enough to feel from distances the smoothness of its melting walls...! To the beach, to the beach...but do not forget YOURSELF!

September 4, 2012...

...In search of the meaning of 'PRESENT'...
...sublime synchrony... no need for anything else!!! ...especially when it so naturally happens that you think it's necessity itself operating--and you catch yourself marveling at your own existence, and loving it more and more!

...when blood flows like a river unsurpassed and sublime in its AGGRESSIVENESS in whatever it collects on its way....and SOFTNESS in how it refines and gives character to its collection... SO that you FEEL and witness the creation and development of veins as pillars of eternal pyramids of relationships...then you smile and calmly say: 'i want everything as it is'...I want to make love to you PRESENT !...and you close your eyes in order to open doors of 'impossibilities'...and you Open your EYES again in order to open doors of 'possibilities'...and the cycle continues---and whoever tried to Stop it has already killed themselves innumerable times... ...enter forcefully...!

September 3, 2012...

...one of the most beautiful scenes !!! ... 'MORT' as a shedding of the old skin--constantly changing--having the courage to discover a new YOU in you...re-evaluating eternally---looking at yourself in the mirror and experiencing thousands DEATHS--and consequently BIRTHS !!! looking at yourself from a different perspective---changing in the face of LIFE and telling it to come hit you or kiss you with whatever it HAS !!! Accepting the tragic and comic aspect of it as fundamentally ONE AND THE SAME THING-- that which becomes tragedy or comedy ONLY because of the change in perspective, in feeling, in living and creating !!!! LA MORT de Weronika only means the birth of Veronique-- nothing else...the process is what fundamentally what matters and not the beginning and the end of it!!...and since this is a continuous process IT WILL NEVER 'DIE' !!!

August 29, 2012...

‘Instead of employing the great sources of strength, those impetuous torrents of the soul that are so often dangerous and overwhelming, and economizing them, this most shortsighted and pernicious mode of thought, the moral mode of thought wants to make them dry up’ ...Nietzsche

The interpolation of something particular into necessity- or that which becomes necessity- is as needful in development as ever! Slowly sensing that self-control , or self-balancing or self-mastering mechanism that takes over in self-overcoming, and becomes the supreme activity- A feast of feelings where clashes between what’s ‘naturally’ wanted and what’s greatly and nobly produced and created make for the most sublime phenomenal experience! What do we strive for---what is the thread that keeps all connected in an essential way made from—is it that Will To Power that Nietzsche talks about? …and if so why does it have to be so hard?- maybe because it is meant only for the strongest or in other words for the most spiritual beings? ..or is it because it is so rare? Or both and more?

Sublimating your instinctual wants, the raw and rough bursts of your passions, desires, drives -Not abnegating, extirpating, or annihilating them! Turning great sources of strength positively into a creative force…a deep desire to maintain in close proximity the ‘affecting object’ of that intimate and thoroughly exciting process- a deep need of possessing what can be offered in flesh and soul- especially when they come already affected in totality- a total penetrating experience…come to me for I want to possess you divine creature and superabundant energy! Come with full force and then exit likewise!!! Come as You are and then leave changed! Come again and again until you collapse from excitement and fulfillment- and rise again and again, only this time over and above yourself!

But what is it exactly that I want to freeze into a concept, or word, or picture, or moment, or feeling, or story, or dance, or blueness that really does the affecting---where exactly does it come from? and how? …but especially how? …well…the moment you try to answer it or might convince yourself that there is actually a possible answer, it might as well be the moment when you destroy yourself with ignorance and innocence, or destroy yourself from fear and uncertainty of your future, as if you really know anything about IT at the moment of feeling in control! Smiling in the face of getting to know yourself deeply is one of the gayest and most important human activity- which in my opinion should become a necessary activity IF ONLY YOU CAN CAPTURE THAT FLEETING MOMENT that might last forever- you know moments here are NOT constructed in the same scientific way we talk about them – instead one can and should picture the possibility of a second here and now-being conjoined fruitfully with a second in 30 years , and a second 50 years back, until you find that TIME means something else for you! …and then slowness and frequency acquire other meanings as well! When confronted with these perspectives and their possibilities one has to feel that one is developing, evolving-only as being understood again separate from biological processes- that is why TIME is pictured in these almost terrifying states of possibilities!!! …but beautiful…beautiful…beautiful…

Otherwise remain stagnant and lose meaning altogether!!! Otherwise become cold like death and freeze into nothingness…otherwise become the embodiment of DECAY and do not send energy…otherwise become a weak enemy of the magnificent ‘touch’ in the neck!-- For you need a thin and fit neck and one that elongates itself toward the sky to become an enemy of- you will not even consider a less worthy of an enemy! Otherwise forget terribly and cancel your memory…otherwise take your little ‘PLAY’ & fake control and throw it out of the window-run toward it as it flies and fall with its fake weight-you will see that it’s not going to hurt because it is meaningless…otherwise shut yourself down and weight for thousands of years and wake up after the long winter and feel the RAY of the SUN- it is going to even taste differently—and you will drop a tear from fear of feeling IT true-but will never know that it is actually true and will continue to live in total bliss [nothingness?]—that is the price you pay for extirpating and abnegating your drives!!!

The exchange is the motor of things! The exchange is like magnets: both have to be strong and pull or push depending on the angle or perspective, but never showing fear! Fear only insofar as it propels you to overcome terror from existentialistic tendencies! No more, no more than that- anything above that dose can extirpate the most unique part of YOU and leave you dry and floating! We need meaningful contact with earth, with what remains ‘unmoved’, ‘essential’ in the sense of that basic drive that becomes an unstoppable and eternal feeding breast!

A deep desire to anticipate a sound, the sound of relief from a dream! – so that you experience that pain a million times stronger- a necessary activity that will give you strength and only strength……or produce a sigh…or a release of breath into fullness! The deep desire to explain what you already know-with a smile…especially when you know and feel what is coming---a deep desire to uncover mysteries that you carefully create them LIKE a spider and with a spider’s purpose! …the deep desire to physiologically and psychologically encapsulate preys that secure your existence- one where levels of metabolism are unsurpassable. …a deep desire to remain silent and become encapsulated in the present so much that you are delighted in re-experiencing an already known phenomenon as NEW ! A deep desire to re-experience the OLD as NEW and vice-versa without being caught in melancholic worthlessness or emptiness!!! A deep desire to attach to slowness even more meaning to the point where seconds feel like hours---feeling the weight of the decision deep in your bones…and letting a tear or two go---and smiling at the phenomenon- Ambivalence is needed? Isn’t IT always involving coexisting feelings that oppose each other beautifully?

…but I don’t explain… I let it happen…this is merely a teaser into my spider’s webs!!! Anything else not pertinent is a waste of time and energy- and YOU know it!!!

A big YES then, for slowness and for the triumph of feelings-rationally acquired and preserved! Is it not true then that feelings contain their quanta of power and reason?

August 24, 2012...

..something about it that enters 'YOU' unconsciously, and AFFECTS in some strange way---and you listen to the last note of it and want to know where the sound resides now: your stomach? your heart? your legs? your hands? your EYES? ...and you cannot answer---you try to act but only contradict yourself---it has become YOU now as it has always been- just maybe filled a bit more with some strange substance, which you are dying to know how it manifests itself, and also desire to know where it resides now---but it's going to come back - ETERNALLY!!!

August 23, 2012...

OH, THESE SONGS AND DANCES!!!
Is it elegance or understanding that commands here?, a sense of fear of losing?, a being sensitive enough that you feel the need to respond in some way?, a multiplicity of conflicting events that stops you from continuing what you had started in your little '...' ? Courage? For what?- Until you find the WHAT you ask yourself:Has the exhaustion arrived yet? you want to know because you are getting ready to fight it with all you have! Is it because you just need a breath of fresh air? Is it because there's a positive constant need to make things the way you want even though you fall in love with them just because they are not your ideal creation and will never be? discharging energy instead of preserving it so that there's cycles? But we become so small and encapsulated in dark rooms with no air that we change greatly for a moment-and maybe only to ourselves-eyes and senses might be deceiving in dark rooms!!! and ah, how much that ephemeral, irrelevant, and insignificant inconsistency in our type might affect things greatly!!! But you have to overcome anything that stands in the way! Take a trip to the stars and look 'down'! only from afar we fully understand perspective! Migrations without leaving the body behind-maybe the opposite should be done-putting understanding in your suitcase so that you travel 'elegantly' and with light feet? Only then you would come back with force that pushes one shockingly and solar-ly into corners, because of a divine discharge of energy! The most elegant dancing takes place continually, not only in particular places and times!!! Move me!!! Keep me moving!!! Maybe one day I will return the favor !!!

One can say:
...inspired by the fluctuating differences of two sources, worlds, realities, perspectives, beings, individuals, and their development in accepting and making room for each other's affectation....concerning itself with bringing awareness into the relationship that is being developed by exploring movement that is reminiscent of past and present in the way its dynamically offered, slow and attacking as the past, fast and energetic as the present, and a sustained legato as the mysterious future... Above all trying to explore the process of slicing through these time & perspective realities which inspire questions of a higher meaning: that of development of the SELF in time!
or remain silent and write one for yourself!

August 22, 2012...

[+=1]? ...who knows!

Goethe says: Only in limitation is the master manifest.

...A deep desire to create shapes, lines, movement dynamics, gestures, eyes that look for themselves as part of a bigger cosmos, an individual within an individual, the striving for form, and form-giving to oneself or self-creation??---and then break out of these with the idea of those periodic migrations where you find the particular, the nuances, what makes smth what it is in it that wants to fly, not a romantic flight but am earthly one-the one that returns to the SECOND and celebrates it , what manifests the striving within form ....The finding of micro movement that affects the entire structure??---but I don't TALK- I let it happen! The affectation comes later...later...

...is this going in and out of lines and formations with force, energy, balance with a sense of letting go, with the desire to marry the SECOND and celebrate it, is this what I am doing? A deep desire to mirror my ... through Dance? One has to be very Elegant to understand processes of LIFE-in other words to discover himself in the development and yet be able to accept and say YES all along, even better when its accompanied with a smile! We should understand and study works of Art as just part of a cosmological expression of an Artist, which includes his life, passions, character, philosophy...and above all---DEVELOPMENT !!!

[+=1]? ...who knows !

August 21, 2012...

Candle light!!!

...anguish lifts everything up!

...dreams kill ordinary thoughts!

...Nostalgia exceeds emptiness....

and what remains is YOU, changed !!!
(1999)

August 19, 2012...

[+=1]...? - Who knows !!!
You know when you forcefully try to fade the light away...so that it doesn't 'blind' you greatly?-or should I say ignite and preserve memory in your eyes? ...well.... You know photons have a life cycle of their own---they come forcefully, and when u think they are gone-they take shape and form and intensity of another kind-a kind that will come back surprisingly even more 'blinding' than before--we as 'scientists' just cannot know that one night they will dance together and , maybe collide fruitfully, and give birth to new species of photons -the ones that never fade away--for they are unsettling!!! ...they just return--over and over again---it's their Amor Fati that propels them!!!

A necessary trip into the unknown---what matters for the scientist is that they exist as 'quantum' of electromagnetic radiation...but what actually matters for 'us' is their energy, their ability to preserve energy, and their ultimate desire to exhaust themselves at the expense of this abundant energy-they need to preserve the cycle- one has to die in order to live---experiencing thousand small deaths!!! I only believe in a body that can go to extremes in 2 seconds without realizing it! That's the power of balancing oneself and looking into abysses and smiling because you feel full!!! ...now, I am not suggesting that there's another superpower that brings the body to act and exist in a certain way-that's out of my scope and understanding--as that might even be, actually most likely, a flower, on a beach, that sends signals and keeps photons alive and gorgeously active!!! ...or maybe a seahorse who has taken the time to dig deep into the ocean bed, to construct pyramids of feelings underwater, to wait for the electric signal (one does not necessarily have to TALK-silence doesn't mean absence of happenings-on the contrary) ...or it might just be the deep color of the sea itself that affects from afar--all these might be conspiring with FATE! ...and GOOD for them---why should I worry about what tomorrow will REALLY bring? It might change with the mood of the seahorse---and I'm still happy for I know seahorses now, or at least their eternal moods---actually that's what I'm in love with-ONLY things that change, or at least TRY, and FEEL total repose on a GIANT's eye...for the EYE IS the SEAHORSE !!!

July 23, 2012...

...it's as if the eyes are eternally and innocently staring at something without eating it up, without fervently consuming it, without sensually sculpting it, without feeling the exciting trembling and vibration of the entire complexity of your molecules!!!...it's as if heading TO annihilation with Love...

You have a supreme desire to give weight, to be gravity itself!!! You can play with this idea as long as you remain an eternal child- no less than that---creating on the edge of losing and gaining---taking supreme pleasure in destroying and building even if the object of your game is TIME itself---being propelled toward what can be pure flexibility so that you can squeeze, drink and then mold into another form that which can be filled up again--- THE JUICE IS WHAT KEEPS THE GAME ON ! …and this is… It is...it was...it's like....it's...The juice is...like the...what keeps running...sometimes comes out of someone's eyes-but please don't give it a name yet (even though you just did, please take it back)...it should be coming FROM the depths of the bees' stomach and heart.....with Love!!!

…and that’s where the reaction against streams that just tenderly touch, painfully light moments that just hang over your sensitive skin like a bad dream, comes from- SO not from fear of accepting lightness (especially when you love anything that gets close to flying and already are…)but from the desire to build something that resist time and thinking- nurtured only from feelings…carefully weighted feelings- One should never be obscure to oneself even when they feel it’s their basic need of survival!!! Open your heart to yourself like the flowers’ ‘face’ to the sky and try to stare with EYES that eat everything up, consume everything fervently, that sensually sculpt stones with their intensity, that allow for shaking from excitement, that volcanically connect you molecules, that affect your ‘untouched’ muscles for days to come, that give you the deepest sense and shade of the deepest BLUE, that allow for a sublime repetition of events so ‘different’ (and the use of this word is my only injustice here !) from each other that feels like they are always completing/nesting/spinning gorgeous webs around your existence, that burn and get burned in the process of touching from Within and with a solar attitude!!!

These are the….that head toward anything WITH LOVE…but again I’m just a dreamer-suspended in the air-outside a blue window-inside a round thing that has no meaning, and ready to fall or be dropped into the void so that I can make it pregnant with LIFE !!! AND I’m loving it!!!

July 19, 2012...

a tremendous difference between experiencing from this perspective: time in relation to things OR from this: things in relation to time... forget about the play of words here wherein you speak of the former [time], and the latter [things] as two separate entities that affect each other depending on the order of thinking them through --- forget about giving them the quality or the status: EXISTENT--- actually let's be more daring than that: forget about the fact that they are defined only in one way or even two or more and switch their meanings for a second !!! Time as a thing, and Thing as time!!! Literally! Can you picture, think, imagine your instant creation!!! Can then you explain IT! where do we go from here? What does experience mean to us now? Where is the tremendous difference that i was talking about? ...well at this point you have to feel it as it is almost unexplainable--- when two things, movements, events, entities, feet, qualities, muscles, contractions, releases, heart pulses, blood streams, veins, bodies, molecules, sweat agents that produce unforgettable scent, brain signals going wild, irregular but precise movement of the eyes, the ball of energy running up and down your throat....without even mentioning the infinite non-physical activity that adds to all of it......now what is experience to us, and more precisely the tremendous difference that i was talking about?...going around in circles as the only way to explain...the eternal recurrence of the same has a very interesting synchronistic attraction to this idea...but differs in that it cannot provide more exceptional organs than we already have---what it can do though is wake them up, shake them up, and sharpen them !!! the tremendous difference in experiencing might consist in learning to NOT separate, define , understand, explain, make simpler, darker, and superficial!!! the point is to experience [in our newly/hypothetical formed sense of experience] from WITHIN/INSIDE [?] what you think absorbingly from outside---Then you are getting closer to 'experiencing' the tremendous difference that I am talking about!!!--- but this is just an hypothesis- maybe already experienced ;))...and proved by the triumph of feelings !!! Without Movement there will be no such things OR times !!!

July 14, 2012...

...Magnetic Eyes !!!...
That means movement that keeps you alive by virtue of it displaying majestic qualities that make walking, standing , and maybe flying bearable and with a sense of purpose!!! Walking the unknown with a sense of willing, desiring, and changing strongly is the most audacious and spirited activity, the most sublime human activity as seen from super-clusters....The perspective changes as you get closer- but that is the point- to change greatly! First we have to feel....but we have to move even before that...hahahaha- as if i told you the right order---will we ever know? I'm just a thinker in these last sentences...

With Love,
....to all my special friends !

July 13, 2012...

Thank you for the day(s) ::: ouy edam em elims !

The precision with which you have to slice through the most perspicuous of all qualities of feeling in order to preserve it for the memory is an unbearably beautiful procedure-but we need millennia to develop the right taste or feeling sensors in order to be able to swallow the entire phenomena of the beautiful without choking from its intensity! Especially the side of it that becomes unbearable... We need millennia to sharpen our surgeon skills! No room for mistake in these kinds of freezing conditions! …now add to it the changing process, and you’re molecularly exhausted ad infinitum!!! A good exhaustion though! Who has the energy to eternally put the cells together to construe something sublime, especially knowing deep down that the sublime requires that facet of what can be characterized as the complete opposite of the beautiful-the destructive forces that construct par excellence …who has good feet for those delicate states….

…but I should ask before I continue: is it knowledge of precision that we lack or something that produces new colors for the eyes, new arteries for the heart, new seconds for the clocks, new skin for the hands? Can we even try to swallow the immensity of it all without building elaborate pyramids that enclose complex personal systems?

….seconds as the eternal damnation… who invented time? asks the bird who wants to dance continually without counting the steps…his feet are not event touching the ground. Do we have to be so attached to gravity all the time- can we think of our existence as not involving it, or at least partially involving it- can we make room for flying?-any kind…is it weight the idea here- the greatest weight--- or is it the inability to find stable ground? And what is stable after all! Something that continually moves- I would say and love it to be! But, we get confused on words here as we try to make things simpler, darker and emptier…That’s the essence of thinking (at least for N.) Get the knife! Let us start practicing- and before you know it the time runs out-we re-invent our stagnation from fear of perishing!!! We want longevity-that comes from preserving a dull medium temperature of the body. The secret relies on extreme hot-cold frequencies!!! Burning is the secret---I love it when you burn all day!!! –like the SUN, Like the SUN, like the SUN…I have been telling you- back to the sun, the majestic SUN! Who has good skin for that?

Perhaps the leitmotif of my life has to do with developing: new organs, a refined taste, flexible muscles for the greatest weight, the ‘craziest’ form of friendship, and an immense will to power… and for what you would ask, and I will answer: to be able to push the replay button not only with a good conscience but with abundant delight in ‘my’ worldly and magnetic EYES! I WANT everything as it is !!!

Thank you for the day ::: ouy edam em elims !

July 7, 2012...

...Flight of the Bee !!!

....when even a single note, melody, scale....when even a single movement of the hips, arms, or delicate hands speak so clearly , and penetrate your most hidden strings.... when getting closer to the unsurpassed sensitive mountain peaks (even though your fragile nature can't bear the phenomenon for more than two minutes)...everything feels so ridiculously strong... are we really ready to live strongly?- i love picturing the ones who will jump and say YES- but it takes more than that my friends!!!- First a double espresso served by the lonely falcon and you have to stare without losing balance-remember you are still on one leg!!! Second, the descent is an art in itself, it needs GRAND STYLE as coming to two legs after such a journey requires passion and supreme control--falling here is the most 'natural' thing...more than that a grand Diaphragm is necessary- breathing here is particularly hard!!!! maybe another espresso but then no more falcon--- WHICH one do you prefer living with-'sometimes' there's only one choice !!! oh, i how i love Falcons!!!

July 3, 2012...

The intensity with which we experience the smallest variation of an extravagantly imagined scenario does not only make room for finding new things in us and looking at them through different eyes , but most importantly it is what constitutes the cosmological richness of the individual!!! No weakness whatsoever is even thought of being produced here- never! Weakness in this respect is only for sedentary beings! ...finding intoxication in Movement! Grand excitement comes with finding a new life within nuances! Small periodic Migrations are necessary!

June 26, 2012...

Door-open yourself from within!!! The movement into smth unknown , and yet the most perspicuous feeling that attracts toward it make life bearable- do not want it to be a 'machine' with a purpose, rather necessity should prevail, a necessary growing into it, a warlike necessity of acquiring and preserving whatever produces energy! Movement that milks the cream from the morning leaves of the oldest trees, a beginning within the old roots-only those roots who have danced...

I only believe in flesh that transforms itself And excites only in totality with the spirit...Bouncy molecules that carry meaningful ingredients. Mysteriousness for the sake of clarity! How can we constantly forget that we are moving?!- why do we think of stillness and an eternal motionlessness as the state where balance is acquired?!.. I think of the perfect balance only as the constant sublimation of intoxicative states from disturbances or perturbations into creative forces-an eternal nuclear fusion-let the repose only to the sensitive eyes!!!

Are we cells that travel distances without getting affected? Could not resist the simplest tempest without singing and dancing... Once one becomes the embodiment of the opposites within a moving perspective, one cannot asses the simplest 'effect' without being struck in the head and heart that it doesn't exist in the form and meaning we have given it!!!

...Nothing more exciting than the quality of persisting energetically through waves of disturbance, with a delicate and reposed eye whose internal life resembles that of the sun....burning With the desire to burn anything in close proximity, and majestically intertwined with the stars when experienced from afar...

A single look into the sun will change your perception on things---from a scientific point of view everything might be 'explained'-or should I say described ?!!! Do not mistake the beginnings for what they should not be- try to understand that the language is the only barrier that confuses us when it comes to what really runs deep!!! A recurrent flow from a blood stream connecting worlds- maybe something un-explained, or yet un-described in Alexander's heart?!!- a potent and benign poison?!!!...Ahh... 3 times for a beginning, middle and unfinished end...

June 16, 2012...

A sustained expression of pain in its roughest form---where have our ears , eyes and noses gone? Far from being sensitive, they are just fighting a constant battle between surviving and perishing-The rhythm produced reinforces their survival instincts, brings them closer to the rule, form, the edge of the stage! But we need more intoxication to not let them fall off stage, and from no mere narcotics, but from an affirmation of what reevaluates the stage with its tragic, and comical characters of love! We need another kind of infatuation-the dust and acidic forces of the process of the spirit's weakening throughout millennia have covered and Eaten up what once gave nuances to what we saw, felt, touched and smelled. Progressively slowing down ad infinitum... We need this adagio of the spirit to realize that it needs to turn into a lively presto, or at least an andante with a goal toward realizing itself by acquiring new eyes, ears, noses, tongues, feelings . We need movement as the caravan of love... Movement, movement , movement ....three times for the rhythm and the realization of a beginning middle end type of story that needs fresh air-a new beginning? Middle? ...or end? Who can tell? The daring type needs a spark, and creates it,covered with flowers' liquid so that it's consumed by the spirit's bees constantly, so that there's always a need to find new flowers and cultivate new flowers. Am I too sensitive? Maybe ! Am I too hurt by languid promises ? Maybe, but it's the getting stronger in a different way and that's the sublimest thing we sensitive beings have to experience, and fully in order to maintain high levels of energy! The rhythm still persists in the distance... Movement, movement , movement ....

June 6, 2012...

An inexplicable potent energy wave across the chest that comes from superclusters of memories, experiences and feelings--the desire for possession that will only exhaust with possession... Double edged feeling of power and weakness. The ability to feel it and the lack to have it. Don't come 'near' me so that I can want you more speaks the reason...come and lets be friends speaks the soul-but it has to define friendship in order to satisfy its real needs... ...as if all around 'it' was annihilated so that the focus on it could increase in infinity...as if the need for nothing else but it became the essential and the only need! As if No water, no other animals were really needed-actually pushed to their space limit, if not destroyed-but just the one under focus --how could it really be that we have treated it as if it's a nonegoistic 'focus'-it's actually the quintessential form of egoism-the highest in its rank, the most potent, the liveliest, the most captivating...do you wanna drink with me, so that we can just cool everything down, periodically?-asks reason. Do you wanna let yourself burn a bit from it so that the skin is transformed into something else? Speaks the soul...but again it has to explain what burn means here!!!

April 6, 2012...

This far from me!

Ants walking in line,
I cry,
behind them, could not bear the vision…

The eyes' pink tide was stealing breath!

The world truthfully, in front of you,

Revealing its cream whilst twisting.

Gorgeous game, without waste of energy!

This is how I forget myself, inside the stars…

April 2, 2012...

Sublime has made so much progress in the last 6 months. We are currently working on 4 dance pieces: Springs Duets, [+=1], a quartet for the April 27 show in the Bronx, and a duet. Great stuff is happening in rehearsals too. I'm seeing so many things that might potentially become seeds of other new creations-inspiring and inciting movement ideas that bring you closer to understanding yourself and the power and subtleties of movement in general. I'm amazed at the possibilities that movement, space, time, emotions, abstract ideas, music and rhythm make available for you to play with; how they themselves facilitate the development of a more colorful awareness of what all these elements can do to your creation with respect to the endless and limitless variations they help bring to life; the colors and nuances found in each branch of that development and the intricacies of the mixing or love-making of these branches with each other are stupefying.

'Spring Duets' is a new piece that we put together very quickly… we were able to do that because of the many months of working together on discovering and building our movement vocabulary, discovering ourselves and the people we dance with, and when you are in a good place with respect to that, movement and movement phrases flow and come to life effortlessly. 'Spring Duets' was inspired by the fact that we have started to understand each other better now, not only as dancers but also as people sharing so many things in and out of rehearsal time. The duets strive to incorporate a manifestation of that in the way they come together under the impressive colors and scents of the springtime. We premiered this piece in Staten Island at The Edgewater Hall in a beautiful and spacious performance studio. This was also our first official trip with the company. Diana created a fantastic movie that documented that fun trip. You can see the movie here…this was funny and amazing to watch.

March 30, 2012...

The last few months have been busy, but productive, and interesting as well! Fortunately I've had lots of performances, tours, rehearsals, and great encounters with artists, places, theatres, cities, and works of Art. Traveling, performing, giving/offering, sensitively acquiring experiences, taking steps towards discovering my 'mind' (in Kauffman's sense of mind)) and above all having fun discovering my body & developing a sharper awareness of its infinite possibilities, have made me appreciate a lot more what I do and how I live my life. In the lyrics of a favorite song of mine there's: 'Beauty remains in the impossibilities of the body' –a very thought provoking idea, but it's really amazing how that discovering and creating, or contributing or being part of that 'development' or 'becoming' really means to me living on the tightrope that tries to connect the possibilities and the impossibilities of our body/mind. Is it a mysterious existence that we can access somehow in a productive way and have I gotten to understand how close I am to it? Maybe, maybe not…Looking for/ yearning for/ searching for/asking for Beauty? Maybe, maybe not…this page can get 'busy' if I even start to question what Beauty consists in…but…maybe one day, the page will become a real laboratory of questioning ;)

I have performed with NYBDC a lot lately. We went to Texas (Dallas) , France in (Le touquet-Paris-Plage),and Ithaca NY for an awesome residency @ Cornell University. The quite mysterious, splendid, magnificent, brilliant, and luscious baroque world is allowing for a deeper penetration into its realm and beauty. Having lots of fun out there and looking forward to discover more from its exuberant fruitiness.

October 14, 2011...

Anjola Toro and I collaborated for a fantastic photoshoot on our roof. What came out of that was amazing!!! Inspired by the amazing light that the beautiful day gave us, we decided to shoot something very quickly. Anjola asked me to improvise with movement and objects that were surrounding us, and it was such a pleasure to move on top of the wonderful roof that we have, and alsoso amazing to move and improvise under that clear and inviting sky...You can check some other photos from this photoshoot on Anjola's website , or on either of our facebook pages! Hope you enjoyed them...

Sept 30, 2011...

Working and performing with the New York Baroque Dance Company has been a real pleasure! We had a great show on the 24th.Here are some of the photos that Anjola Toro took after the first show, in the lobby of the 92Y theater. I regret that i did not take more photos with the ensemble- with the wonderful dancers! Next time ;))).. I was in my turkish/bohemian costume ready to perform Les Fetes De Ramire by RAMEAU.The choreographer and Artistic Director of NYBDC, Catherine Turocy, did a particularly wonderful job in exploring the bohemian nuances and embellishments through movement and costume. The look therefore was totally excotic, the right look and feeling that one experiences when excotic Bohemia meets the rich Turkish folklore!!! Everything was there: the juicy and luscious movement, the fantastic costumes, and the deep feeling with which acquires and experiences when one connects to hundreds of years old cultures, which in turn, unconsciously touch us soflty but sensibly, and transport us into the richness of our past times.

Sept 1, 2011...

Sublimation: One of the most important concepts in Nietzsche's philosophy involves, as Kauffman rightly suggests, a process wherein there is a selection going on, a cancelling and lifting [up] ( and sure very similar in concept to Hegel's idea).Sublimation is a key concept in N's Philo because it elucidates and explains his idea of self-overcoming and also will to power.. N talk about self-overcoming and self-mastering with respect to one's passions (to control them- to sublimate them) instead of extirpating or abnegating them...

I think that the embodiment of this process in the highest and most "natural" form is found in relation to Dance- The art of moving with power and laughter!!! In dance one sees the attainment of whatever sublimates and is sublimated into, as a form of Art- a vivid and a clear example is the 'reincarnation' of a powerful metaphor through movement.

The resemblance of dance as a form of Art ,as a process where sublimation is naturally at home with itself is fascinatingly striking to me. The manifold and absolute experience, or at least the possibilities of the experience of the world is realized with the entire body being active and in 'motion', instead of parts of it functioning separately from each other….and we will never get close to understanding our entire manifold experience if we don't factor in the major importance and role that our body has in it.

The plastic arts and Music, have had a way of using parts ,or at least placing more importance on parts of our bodies, and have forgotten or at least not paid as much attention to the unity of those parts, as if music or painting can only be enjoyed, understood or lived through, by using our ears and eyes respectively-Toward a rehabilitation of the development of the senses. We should develop our sensibility to the highest degree!-We should be able to see with our flesh, feel with our eyes, listen with our nose, and smell with our ears. Toward a total unification of an aesthetic experience!!! World as true, only as an aesthetic phenomena. Dance is the highest possible medium to facilitate to maximum this unification.

Aug 14, 2011...

Yesterday was a very beautiful day for many reasons: First because Balam Dance Theatre performed at the Downtown Dance Festival, but also because the weather favored us by being a very nice one. The DDF has been active for 30 years- they were actually celebrating their 30th anniversary this saturday. Companies such as Battery Dance Company, Dancewave Company, Silesian Dance Company, Ballets with a Twist, and us were some of the participants that opened the 30th Annual Downtown Dance Festival. We performed Ramayana- Abduction of Sita (among other dances), the latest version of it, wherein 'Primordial Embers' ( originally a duet danced by Olsi Gjeci& Atsushi Yahagi) was inserted into it. It was Spectacular!!! Artistic Director, Carlos Fittante has done a beautiful job in putting together this interesting,spectacular, and rich dance piece.It's such a pleasure performing with wonderful artists such as Carlos Fittante, Robin Gilbert, Toshinori Hamada, Dianna Warren, Nani Devi, Atsu Yahagi. Anjola Toro came and took some wonderful photos.

Here's some of the photos that Anjola Toro took. Visit Anjola's website for more extraordinary photos!

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